How am i to not feel the pain.

I really hate to remind myself that time spent with him will soon run out.Yesterday night,he called.We were on the phone until from 10pm to 1am.10pm-12.30am,we weren't even talking.He just called to make sure that i was studying.How sweet right,where the hell can i find a boyfriend like him?Chatted only for half an hour,and that was already enough to make me cry like shit.

I've never seen a guy like him before.Trying his ultimate best to make me happy,make me smile.He wanted me to find a guy after he leave for Australia.I mean,will i be happy that way?He just want someone to take care of me when he is gone.He say he don't want me to feel sad,to go emo over guys all over again.He said that he want to be the one to cherish me since the other guys all dont.People say that i always let guys make use.True.But,if he leaves me,who can assure that all these will not happen again,and that i will not be another guy's puppet again.How the hell am i going to find someone like him again?

I will be strong.I know i have to,no matter what is going to happen.I just need you to stop casting me aside,i just need you to be there whenever i need you.I just need you to stay by my side and love me like how you do now.I just want you to not leave me all alone.I just want to be by your side 3years down the road.Are you willing to?Please say yes.Because then,i will have the courage to live down the 3years,waiting for you.not trying to attempt any stupid things.And living my life just to wait for you to come back.

I'm willing to sacrifice anything.Anything for your safety,for your return.I just need you back.Even though i may have to wait up for years.I don't mind seriously.I just want you to be back.I want to have my future with you.


And i didn't know that i will love you so much.

♥ 8:20 PM