It's been ages.
Yes,true love came once again,but than again,made it so pointless to.True love,i indicated it as this category because i know,its been so long since someone like him love me so much,and of cos i do.But than again,i know that i need to be strong,because he
might have to go to Australia to further his studies soon.Obviously,how i wish the letter will not come,and even if it really have to,it will be a reject letter.Yes,reject letter.Both of us going crazy already,thanks to this stupid visa to Australia.He didn't want me to think so much,didn't want me to lose focus on my olevels.He wanted me to score well,and be the top of the top.He said,if i didnt get my way into poly,he will ask me for a breakup.I mean,of cos if thats the case i will want to study hard right-like obviously.
Anyway,back to the stupid Australia thingy.He didn't want to tell me initially,because he was so afraid that i will breakdown upon hearing the news.I was so so glad that my tears did not make their way out of my weary eyes yesterday when he was just beside me in the Mrt.I guess that he know that i'm going to cry soon,that is also why he kept smiling,forcing a smile on his face,all because he wants me to smile.silly boy.And of cos,i did smile luh,no choice ma.I also don't want him to go emo emo with me ah.Sigh.I hate it especially when time passes so fast in when i was with him.Went to his house and time passes so fast,on the mrt also.
And come to think of it.I think that i'm cursed.All the guys who love(d) me had to leave Singapore.First guy who left Australia,we were together for 1year.Second guy,2months,and now?How i hope god can stop giving me all these stupid tests,and let me live happily with a guy whom i love and love me.Can i?
After talking to hannah and kianloong.I have came up with a conclusion.
If the application to Australia is really a success,I am going to wait for him,despite him asking me not to.You think i care about all the time that im going to lose?3years,probably its a long time.Yes,but i am sure that true love takes more than that to happen.I wont regret my decision.Because i know that i love him.And its because of this love that im going to overcome this obstacle that god is trying to put me into,because our love will turn into power.With this power,i believe that everything could be overcomed.This applies to my olevels too,yays.
My only hope now is that he will be able to live in singapore for the next few weeks happily,and i will try my very best not to put pressure onto him.Happy and i will be contented.I will stay strong,and stay in this position for as long as i can.Right now,just hope that he will recover from his high fever,come come,pray with me for his health people!
&now,my heart revolves around yours.
