My First Day of Work was tiring.
Busy busy busy.1st of all; happy 'dream-come-true' to dearest =DD&work. ._.
I had to do alot of things within 5hours,and
oh-me-god, i'm sure i am going have a deep sleep tonight because its super tiring la.And hardly;at 11.40pm,i'm yawning already.Well, today's busy schedule got me thinking after a long time.
(a)Why am i working so hard, (b)Why should i work so hard, (c)Who am i working so hard for, (d)Is it worth it..Xiansheng,can you answer everything for me?
Yesterday went to godma house and see gerger.Chatted with godma and sisters.Chatted bout kailin's boyf and talked about gerger,talked about ahben(sis's boyf),talked bout jiefu's job and etc etc.Slacked at godma house till like near 10,and took train home.Guess what,on the train i emo-ed.Again.
I told sis,i felt like giving up.Time to time,when i really need him,where is he? But, whenever i have such silly and stupid thoughts,he will appear in front of me,be it smses,calls or what.He will always be there to remind me that he is still here.So whenever guys who treat me very very very well,better den he does came into my life,and sometimes i really do wish i could just let go of him and go with them,however..he will appear again,and somewhat whispers in my ear,
"I'm still here..don't go.."
And tada;i will still be there for him.
I'm stupid i know.I shouldn't be doing all these.I deserve better,like what hannah says.I need a more matured guy to talk care of me,old enough to take care of me.But i wish to stay.1month1week i've put in my heart and soul and lookafter him,remind him about stuffs,talk to him on the phone without fail,made me jealous and all..
I know i have to trust him,i know i need to.
He is busy,he is busy...
Yes,he is STILL busy... *psychos self.
