Simplicity.

Saturday, January 31, 2009

Singapore Polytechnic, here I come.

Integrated events and project managements, here I come.

YAY, another wish list down.

Its my life, my route, my choice.

No regrets, never ever.

I've tolerated for 5 years in secondary school already, this is definitely nothing since its a choice I want! YAY! (:

I'm moving towards my goal, following the path I want. I am so super super glad.

Thanks friends.

Thanks everyone.

Thanks for everyone who believed in me that I can do it, and knew that I can make it. YAY. (:

I love you guys! ^^

muacks.

♥ 12:29 AM

Thursday, January 29, 2009

Me.

Do I really seem like those very 逞强 to you guys at times? Like when I'm sad, you guys know it, but I showed a super happy look and appearance, telling every single person that I'm extremely fine. Especially when I'm outside. But when I'm home, I always will flare up because I was upset, or unhappy on that day. Probably because, I'm at home.

My home is my shelter, my 避难所, my chalet, my restaurant, and not forgetting, being my 出气筒. I may be crazy at times, I may be high. I may also laugh nonstop, trying to make people around me happy, but that doesn't mean thats the real me.

Apple, 开心果, cheerful girl - All my nicknames. Does it mean, its me?

I'm still trying to learn how to manage my feelings. Outside and home. I want to try to let my feelings let out, yet stay cheerful. Or maybe, bottling up feelings might help. Shan't not even let it out at home. So that innocent people wouldn't suffer as much.

sigh.

♥ 11:09 PM

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR! (:

What's up with the new year peeps! I had been having fun lately. HEHE. Expect the part about work and relationships. HOHO. Look who's talking. HAHA. Oh well. Started work today and boss gave a 开工红包. Even though I'm not very sure what is it about la. It consist of $20 and I was very happy. HOHO. And I thought that I was a super 女强人 today because I freaking feel that I was. I worked from 9a.m to 8.30p.m today. Super 11.5 hours. Super? HAHA.

Told boss about what happened to me and Jon briefly and I was told by her to say this to every single one who asked about what happened to me and him.

She said, "Tell them that you were sick and tired of Jon, not the other way round. Don't mind if he 2-timed you or whatsoever. You got tired of him. That's your reason."

Yeah, and I fully agree to what she said. I am tired of him, not the other way round. YOOHOO.

Oh yea, that bitch teacher resigned TODAY! I was so glad that she did, because I can have O.Ts again and that means more money to earn. HAHA

Once again, happy new year to all.

To my shopping khakis, shopping again soon! (:

♥ 10:57 PM

Monday, January 26, 2009

Happy Chinese New Year everyone! (:

It is the 1st day of the new year and hereby wish everyone all the best in the new year. HAHA. I feel like a retard now, because I am going to have a super new year ahead. HEHE. I am going to tell myself that I want to be a super happy girl after 12a.m just now. YAY!

Oh well, I am like doing 守岁 now and I am slacking in front of the stupid television. HEHE. Alright, I shall go off now. HAHA. YAY.

Once again, Happy New Year to all.

xoxo

liying

♥ 1:57 AM

Saturday, January 24, 2009

What life is all about seriously.

Why am I getting all hurt once again like some mother fucker. I really don't understand why. And that god must make ME, and only ME go through all these fucking nonsense things over and over again. Ain't you tired? Even if you are not, I'm sorry to say, I am.

Wanna know what happen? Read on.

Went to town today with Tanya to do last minute shopping for Chinese New Year, and sad to say, I didn't get my heels! Because I don't have enough money to get them. Sigh. However, I got myself a bag and New Future shorts. Actually I shouldn't buy NF shorts, so that I will have money to buy shoes. Such a pity. Anyway, she bought her bag and I bought mine at Bugis BHG. I got mine at only $27.90 and because of my good bargaining skills, we got a free coin pouch each. By right we only should have one. HAHA. It looks unique, but I haven't use it. Oh well. I went to watson to find Siokyit but I couldn't spot her anywhere. So we went off. After that we parted at the Mrt station. Tanya was heading to Causeway Seoul Garden, and i went to Paya Lebar to meet Terry Kor.

I swear it was a disaster. I waited for him to come for about 1hour and a half. It was hell. I used my phone to play games and all just to wait for him to finish dinner and change and walk towards the mrt station to meet me. Took bus 13 and went to ECP. Walked around the place till 8.30 till we saw Kris. It was hell. Because the 1st thing she said to me after hello, and thank you after i passed her her present was... "Jon said if i want him to come, he will come with his girlfriend." I had a shock. I swear. I had no time to react. I felt hurt, to the max. I totally didn't know what to do. I only know I was pissed. I don't know why, for that moment, i hated him alot. Yes I hate Jon.

Whatever la. I feel so dumb for even believing that he loved me. For even believing that he needs me at times. LOL, now he want to play 2 time.. Very pro. I speechless. Really.

&Now im home from Kris bbq. I was starring at the place that he might turn up from, but apparently he didn't turn up. Whatever la. Im off to bed. Nights.

Oh, and did i mention that i dreamt about Tanya last night? Oh man, terrible dreeaamm. Nights.

♥ 1:03 AM

Thursday, January 22, 2009

Working life is such a torture.

& I wish that I can get out of it this very minute.

Backstabber please fuck off.

you know what you have done so jolly well go.

hated you to the max and now for what you've done.

made me hate you for things you have done.

Working society, it ain't that easy.

I swear I have understood what adult life is.

It may not be enough, but its enough for me.

I don't wish to learn, anymore, for its heart-wrenching to see.

The life is full of backstabs, but you, fuck off.

I hated you from the beginning and now, you made things worse.

Twisted story and complain about me,

when all i did was nothing.

LOL, fuck off bitch.

Who do you think you are.

A teacher so what?

You wanna resign, go ahead.

We wont stop you.

Bitch.

Without you, we would be happier.

♥ 10:30 PM

Liying is a happy girl!

Marks 2 items on wish list down again!

Hopefully the coming shopping, I will have another 2 wishlist stroke off, and I can put up new wishlist soon! =D

5 awesome things that she did TODAY, made her a happy girl, and is definitely proud of herself!

1. Liying went back to school today.

2. Liying got her bursary application signed.

3. Liying had her hair dyed.

4. Liying had her new wallet that arrived yesterday, and collected by baobei today. Just in time for Chinese New Year.

5. Liying is single once again.

I went to school with Xueqi to get my bursary application signed. Feels good to be back in school and got my things done and signed within a short 30minutes. Time inclusive of a good talk with Miss Low and getting the school chop and etc etc. Was very lucky to catch Miss Low just before she went back into the staff room.

After that was shopping at Lot 1 for a short while and qi bought her step on leggings, i ordered mine! After that was a super hectic shopping over at cotton on and I bought 6 tops, inclusive of 2 cardigans at the price of $60 in ALL. (: Swear to god, I'm a good shopper. (erps)

After that went home to rot, and wait for Tanya to crawl over to my place to help me dye hair after getting our walletsssssssss that arrived yesterday. Omg, i was so high that i repeated the crazy frog 'ding dinglingdingdingding ling dingding' a thousand and one time, that i swear, both my mum and tanya went crazy. HAHA. And mum kept laughing today, i don't understand why. The colour was upppppppppppppp, my hair colour and I am super ecstatic. :D I just need my hair colour to fade a little more and i will be extremely grateful. Hehe.

After that was camwhoring in my room.

Thanks to camroid.

I pulled her hair!

& she pawned me right after. ):

Ohyes, that marks the end of the day. I am going to sleep real soon. Work starting at 10am tomorrow, but i intend to go in half an hour earlier to earn $3 more!

Friday was shopping with Tanya instead of Jon, because we broke up. (Yes, again -_- ) and meeting up with dearest darling Terry Kor after shopping to go to Kris jie's bbq. HEHE.

Fyi, Jon was my ex, and now became my ex again. (If you understand)

Nights. :D

♥ 12:40 AM

Wednesday, January 21, 2009

Confusion.

When you come to a conclusion,

your mind is telling you that,

you actually have no more time for regrets.

I have made up my freaking mind. & thus I have already no more time for regrets. Now I can only look forward, and pray that my conclusion will be the most flawless. Okay, I can't use the word flawless.. I should say, ... and pray that my conclusion will be the most one, with minimum hurt induced in either person. :/ Sigh.

On the other hand, I should be happy because my wallet has arrived! & I'm dying my hair the not light not dark colour. Hehe. I am happy. (:

♥ 12:15 AM

Monday, January 19, 2009

The brand new start of the New Year week.

I have gotten myself this stylo milo phone..

Presenting to you,Earthlings,

Sony Ericson C902

The greatest invention this new year, with superb even fine lines at the side of the phone as decorations. With 5.0 mega pixel, this cyber shot phone can be with me for the next 2 years (hopefully),and view the world with me. This silver C902 is unique too! Because black and red is super common nowadays. And so I'm proud to declare, (it) as my new lovely husband! (:

The usual price is $638.

The contract price is $238.

I had to pay an additional dollars of $100 because my student plan line had only been a year, so i had to renew it. And thus, making it $338. Well, I was dumbfounded at the total amount i had to pay initially, but no choice. ): My W910i LCD screen is spoiled and i NEED to get one bloody phone. Moreover, i queued for like 1 hour 30 minutes for it. I must buy it somehow. In the end, i told the person that i was a long and loyal customer of starhub and i hadn't gotten any voucher since 4 years ago! In the end the person said in a very light and cheerful tone.

He said, ' Okay! I will call and check it out for you alright?' and he smiled.

I expected just a $100 waive off. And i hope that i only have to pay like $238 for the phone. After waiting for his reply, like 5 minutes later....

He said, ' Hey ma'am, we will waive off that $100 for you," and he continued after me smiling at my mum, glad at the waived off, "and we will give you another $100 phone voucher." He smiled again.

I was shocked, loss at words.

"So you mean, i only need to pay $138?" I said.

He smiled as he nodded his head.

Holy god. I simply can't believe that fact that I only need to get my phone at the price of $138!! I am extremely happy, because compare the amount, the usual price and the price i paid. HEHE. I love starhub! I swear that I will continue signing on with them, because I simply like their service. This had been the reason why I persisted on signing with Starhub instead of Singtel like my parents and sister. Woohoo! :D

So now, liying has a new phone.

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Was supposed to go out with him today, but i didn't in the end. Didn't feel like it, so i cancelled the whole appointment, but we are going to Kris birthday next friday, will still be seeing him. The bbq is more and less confirmed already, just that i'm not sure if there will be any last minute changes. Well, in the end went godma place and played with girlgirl my niece! She is so super cute i tell you. Everyone was there but she only wanted to stick with me, and guys of cause. HAHA. Girls, especially baby girls, they are realistic, they will cling on to guys more than girls one okay! And before leaving godma house, i carried her and left the house, she wanted to follow me off okay. LOL, i would have done that if i aint going to Tampines Mall. :x

Tampines Mall today was packed. I bought my phone, and bought my parents this healthy pillow or something since i also thought that my parents pillow spoil liao. But that pillow aint cheap okay! It cost me $78 each. I bought 3, 1 for dad, 1 for mum and 1 for myself. My sisters pay for themselves. :x

And went to My mum's elder sister, my ahyi's house for dinner. Very delicious ah, especially the soup. Woohoo! :D

Okay, there's work tomorrow, so i'm going off to sleep.

YAY! 1 wish list down! I'm working towards my goal. HAHA!

Nights, Loves~

♥ 12:17 AM

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Why must you try means to come back when i thought that its already impossible between us.

Why say no when this time round I really meant so.

What exactly you want.

♥ 1:25 AM

Thursday, January 15, 2009

SHOPPING SESSION!

and its the freaking first time without photos ):

Oh well, hey. I had fun today. Went out with Hannah and S today, like YAY! Fun & Enjoyed myself thoroughly. I believed the 2 of them did too, because its like rather a reunion. Hmm. Well, went shopping at Far East Plaza today and went to Wisma, and to Cineleisure to Heerens, to plaza Singapura, to Far East again, and back to Heerens.

I BOUGHT A BANGLE AT CINELEISURE.

I BOUGHT SOMETHING. LOL.

Well, we went back to F.E.P again because hannah wants to buy shoes and went to Heerens because we went to eat fish and co. It was like a craving la, and so in the end S and I treated hannah. It was to celebrate my good results, as well as to have an early reunion dinner. Had New York Fish and chips as well as a seafood platter for 2. Also ordered a full course meal which includes a drink (Passion fruit) as well as soup of the day. Means, 3 course meal! I swear to god that i was freaking full after eating those. (I FELT SO SINFUL), and i felt like vomiting. LOL. Luckily we need to walk to the nearest bus stop, so it digested a little. If not i think i really will vomit - thanks to the super bumpy and crowded bus. If not for Hannah and S's nonsense and talk about our past ah. Like what happened to QR and Hannah and etc etc, what happened in school. About fights, to results to i don't know what. And because of that, i actually think that me and hannah really been through a lot.

And that explains what I'm going to do soon.

Thank you.

Teachers:

Miss Geraldine Tang: Nothing that I say can be compared to the many things that you have done for me. Thank you for constantly reminding me that I am great, and I can do anything that I want myself to. For always helping me. For guiding me through my secondary school years and teaching me a lot of things. Be it CCA or English or giving me advices, I really want to thank you many many. I know that I should be proud of myself and have confidence. Because after this, i know that there are actually many things that i can do myself if i want to do it. Woo! Thanks Gery Jie. (:

Miss Shirley Seah: Thank you for coaching me in English like for so many years, and towards my exam period, thank you for always giving me advices on what to do for compositions and comprehensions. And always reminding me to not fall into love during exams because relationships always complicate matters. Thank you for also making the impossible possible. From a D7 in English, to a B3. Really a thousand thanks to you, for always being in my life. From being a teacher, to a friend, to like a big jiejie. We've been through a lot, especially this whole sec 5 year of mine. Lydia and you, i have to thank. And I can become your 活招牌 already. Like such grades ah, its such a big jump for me la. Thank you so much!

Miss Jolyn Tok: Thank you for being such a crapper and chat with me a lot during our tuition sessions. HAHAHA. Thanks for teaching me Maths like right from sec 2's work all the way to sec 5 because my brain was like the retards'. And also thanks for coming all the way after work despite being so tired, and came all the way down to teach me Maths 1 day before my paper and force me to do questions that i thought look retarded. HAHA. Thank you also for coming down before my science papers and force me to finish doing all the retarded MCQ questions that were in the TYS that you bought for me, and taught me the topic, transformer like 17 hours before my Physics paper and it came out. You were such a great help that made my bloody science from a forever fail grade, to a B3. Really thank you! (:

Teachers in Kranji Sec: Thank you for being part of the crew that helped produce my O level results that I, myself is very proud of. I hope I didn't disappoint most of you, and I am so glad that I really had the chance to prove myself wrong, that actually I have the capability to get results that I want myself to produce. Thank you teachers, for coaching me since I was in Secondary 1, be it teachers I adore or not, like or don't. Thank you, because everyone of you were part of my life, and played a role in it. Thanks! (:

friends: (in no specific order)

Hannah: Thank you for always telling me that you are proud of me and I will get good grades for my O levels, because that really help. This is like the don't know how many freaking dedication that I have done for you already, and this will still continue. Thank you for talking to me in English and correcting me when i made some stupid grammar mistakes. Thank you for also idiotically been through so many moronic seconds, minutes, hours, days, months and years with me now and then. Despite all those, you have given me countless priceless advices and that really helped me. You told me to stop thinking of idiotic guys and concentrate on my examinations, and i listened. So YAY. Thanks so much!

Tanya: I have said many many many many freaking thank you and i love you to you before already. Thanks for ALWAYS telling me the good about Singapore Polytechnic, and that will always remind me that we wanted to go to the same secondary and polytechnic together since primary school, but even though we failed to la. HAHA! Hope I really did do you proud! (:

Ben: Bro, thanks for forever telling me that I am going to beat you in O levels, even though i didn't la. HAHA! Missed by like 2 freaking marks right. LOL. And thanks for also always asking me to concentrate on my studies. And telling me to study. Also for comforting me and telling me that i will, and is going to do well for my examination because I did study, a day before results were release. You too, all the best in your test okay! (:

Songwei: Thanks yo, for always been the greatest best listening partner, and the best person to lend me a listening ear apart from hannah. HAHA! Whenever I need to rant, I know you and hannah would be there. When i want to go out, you and hannah will be there. Every every little, small whatever things. Thanks man. Thanks for also telling me that I can do it la. Like when i was stressing over results release day. HEHE. Thanks! (:

Weiny: Dearest! Thanks for always tolerating my crap and talking about everything under the world with me. Thanks for always encouraging me and telling me that can do it, when i kept telling you that i can't! Thanks for always telling me that I am going to get well for results and ask me don't think too much. HAHA. THanks for also always giving me advices that I will obey most of the times la. HAHA. thanks so much! (:

CangNing: Thanks for coaching me and advising me about things that I don't know. And thanks for always being the person i would sms to whenever I have troubles because no matter where are you, no matter what are you doing, you will reply me with don't know how many freaking links and trying to get me enlightened. Thank you for always tellings me to study and teaching me how to prioritize. Thank you!

My 7 sisters: Thanks for teaching me things that I don't know, like humanities and science. Thanks to some, for being a very good listening ear too. Like whenever I have problems, I cry, I will find you guys at times. I know I might be quite irritating sometimes la, like keep telling you all my problems. HAHA. Thank you for always encouraging me when sometimes I get despair and all freaked out and worrying over things. Thank you!!

I'm like freaking tired now, I have work tomorrow. It is 2a.m now and I only just finish typing. I'm so tired! RAH. Okay, I am going to sleep already.

HEHE. good night!!

♥ 11:37 PM

If you guys have been constantly reading, you guys should know that I've started this hobby - baking like recently. And hey, I have done quite a few bakings. And i promised to upload the pictures, here it is.

I did most of the things myself okay!! (:

Anyway, results were released. Some did well, some did okay, some were not satisfied. All i can say is - you reep what you sow. So, when you did well, its what you deserve. And hey, I've sent in my choices already. Its like I'm trying my best to make full use of the whole 12 choices already. Oh well. Today is a wonderful and tiring day. Like I stayed in office for 8hours plus doing admin work. -_- But actually most of the time, i was talking to xueqi on the phone. HAHA.

Shopping with hannah and Songwei tomorrow. Happy. (:

Will update tomorrow.

♥ 12:56 AM

Monday, January 12, 2009

Results day today.

Yes today, 12th January 2009.

Woohoo.

L1R4 - 12.

L1R5 - 17

Wang LiYing, I'm very proud of you. You have done well!

Like it might not be VERY good, but I am sure that you will not regret in the future, because you have placed in all your efforts, and it was sort of paid off. Well, now the another step is to polytechnic life. You have to tell yourself that you will not get despised by people again. You have to tell yourself that you want to go to university. You have to study very hard to not waste time. You have wasted a year in secondary school so don't waste another year in poly. You need to make the right choice. You have to put in your best effort in everything you do. You also have to remember this feeling. This very feeling that placed you up on the clouds, and for once let everyone congratulate you. I am proud of you, I'm sure you have made your parents proud and gag those mouth of your kaypo and irritating aunties and your old-fashioned grandmother who looked down on you and asked you to not study so hard in the past. The same naggy grandmother who wanted your mother to give your auntie's undies to your mum and ordered your mum to let you wear it so that you will be a smart girl in the future, and study university like that auntie of yours. But have your irritating grandmother ever thought that your auntie just barely passed her O'level and retained once in College. So what. I'm glad that you have got them all shut up. (:

You must not let those other people influence you. Even if they think you are haolian or whatever la, just heckcare them alright! Because your right friends will only support you. Moreover what you have done have just saved the face of 4 people in your family. You grandma, aunties, will stop despising you. They will look up on you. You did all these not only for yourself, but for your whole family. So, i am proud of you.

Now for the new life.

I was the baby who was rocked in the arms of her godparents instead of her own parents since young till she could walk and run and jump.

I was the baby who called her godfather, papa, because she had no chance to say it to her own father and it just blabbered our from her mouth.

I was the girl who cried when she knew that the family is going to move from the East to the West.

I was the girl who requested for mum to allow her to go over to godparents house to stay over for a week or so during holidays so that they could have ample time with them.

I was the girl who was left all alone at home when both parents were out and she had to learn to take care of my sister when she was only 7 years old.

I am the daughter who stole her parents money and lied that the teacher placed the money in her purse because she had good results.

I am the daughter whom they made to kneel down before the altar and repent my mistakes.

I am the daughter whom they called the police to arrest me to the police station because I wouldn't admit my mistake. Even if they called police, I didn't.

I am the daughter who started to learn things from her bad influence.

I am the daughter who defied her parents and began to pick up smoking without their acknowledgement.

I am the baby, I am the girl, I am the daughter.

And soon, I am going to be a woman.

So, those became memories, and past already. (:

♥ 11:58 PM

I'm dead tomorrow.

My death day.

I'm scared and worried.

My mood is gone.

But i cannot don't sleep. -_-

I must make myself sleep.

Because i still have work tomorrow.

Nights Peeps.

♥ 1:00 AM

Saturday, January 10, 2009

What a life.

Work today was a bit easy, because cannot do any filings, as all the classes have been used up. Took up K1 English and Maths because Reine couldn't make it yo. Even though its kinda a long day today, hey, I have leave tomorrow but I need to go and work on Monday morning! Even though its my results day. =/ Stress + Stress.

Yesterday sort of quarreled with my dad. I didn't really objected to what he say la, but I was rather unhappy about it and came back into my room to cry. Like a retard, i know. But whatever the case, I thought that he should really consider my feelings and not try to dig out my past. Its like rather sad to hear him say such things to me. Hurts yo. Whatever la, like i've said, i cried in my room and called to him. Upon hearing his voice, it got worse la actually, but i feel good talking to him. Oh well.

Met up with Kenny just now and he was actually with his friends. So i kinda knew them la. Hung around with them around Teck whye area for about 2hours and went home. Now, i'm blogging and flipping through those booklets that i got from SP open house. There are so little choices that i'm interested in la! Prolly because I have my own views and is confirmed about my interest already that made me lose interest in the rest of the courses, but nevertheless. Today was a fine day.

Tomorrow will be staying home to make pineapple tarts. Yay. (: Going to have nice tarts already. Muahaha.

And to end the day in about 10 minutes time, I would like to share this with everyone.

To love and not to love, its just a border away. But once you made up your mind, never give up. Set the person you love free, if he/she comes back in the designated time, he/she is meant to be yours. But if he left you, and came back only after that, he missed the chance.

Got it? (:

ENjoy.

♥ 11:27 PM

Met Tanya at Singapore Poly. Went down with Boss and saw a few friends around there. Had fun talking to them. Went around SP to take a look at those choices that i am going to put into the 12 choices that i have once i got my results. Man. Promised shopping with Tanya too, but it was until on the bus that i realized, I forgot to bring my Ezlink card and ATM card. -_- And with me, only $20. Thanks ah.

Felt so stupid la, but i bought quite a couple of things over at Bugis Street. Like a skirt and a dress. Shopped around the whole freaking place like combed it already. Tanya got the exact same skirt as I did. HEHE. Well, like i said, i didnt bring atm card so i don't dare to see too many things. I promise to go back and shop again. But felt so sorry for Tanya. LOL, she had to lend me money :x And im like in debt now lor.

But nevertheless, like what Tanya said, it was a half good bad day. LOL. Bad because I forgot to bring my things. RAH. ):

AND I'm so so so so sorry again, didn't get to meet you ):

Enjoy.

♥ 12:42 AM

Thursday, January 8, 2009

I'm not judging,

so not going to anymore.

O' level results is like coming out in a while's time. I am going to face death like so soon. HAHA. But who cares, even if I've failed or whatever. Okay la, i care, but, it is not the end of my exams laa. I still got diploma, got university degree, right? (:

Definitely this is not my last stop. I still have a super super long way ahead of me. That I am sure.

I'M SO SORRY ):

SO SO SO SO SORRY.

I made you wait for me for like 3 hours and in the end I couldn't meet you. Sigh. I'm so sorry! And I was so shocked, cos you weren't angry a single bit. That made me even more guilty ah! ): So sorry! And thank you, for being so understanding. >.<

认识，

是我们故事的开始。

了解，

是经过了每个巧遇而换来得。

接受，

是你我都要慢慢学习的。

体谅，

是在你身上看到的东西。

明白，

是我想要为你做的。

关心，

是我想要让你得到的。

过去，

是我们的回意，

现在，

是我们必须要努力的。

未来，

是我们要迎接的。

浪漫，

不是必要的。

欢笑，

是我要在你脸上看见的。

泪珠，

是在我身边才能有的。

因为，我一直都会在。(:

Am going to Singapore Poly Open House Tomorrow with Boss. Meeting Tanya and going town after that. Woot. I Miss Dear girl. Tomorrow will be a good day.

I hope.

Love.

♥ 10:42 PM

Wednesday, January 7, 2009

Idiots like him are meant to be chided, right? (:

So what if i said i don't wanna meet you?

So what if i hung up your phone?

So what if i've changed, you did too.

Whatever nonsense, i've held on to my stand. Whatever you wanna do, continue. But if you want all the quarrels. So be it. Get me outta the game, i'm not continuing already. (:

good bye, my once love.

♥ 10:38 PM

Tuesday, January 6, 2009

More than friends; or just it.

i don't know what are you thinking about, like seriously.

Okay,maybe actually I do. (:

Friends just like roller coaster. They can bring you up, and make you fall greatly and hard on the floor, and maybe they can leave you all by yourself to let you suffer. Or you will not know what he/she will be doing to you, because you cannot see what is in front of you. Man. Fuxk.

I'm going speechless because I no longer know the value of friends.

I no longer believe that people around me could be trusted.

I even think that some of them have motive to be around me.

I doubt their truthfulness.

But whatever. HAHA.

Sometimes,things can only be memories, deep in the mind, enough for us to remember them in our hearts, but not coming back. So, Im not going to mention any further.

Bye.

♥ 11:49 PM

Painful Change

How does it feel like being played out time and again.And how does it feel when someone you love don't trust you.Also, how does it feel being cheated by someone you actually trust a lot.And also, how does it feel like being unimportant to someone you think is important to you.

Tears trickled down my cheek whenever i think of those times when i was having fun, playing with guys trust. But getting all the love that girls will always yearn and wants to get, from guys ranging from the beginning of the timeline to the end of it. Its not that i wants guy. That sound super wrong, and its really not what i meant. Sigh. It really hurts now. Feeling so unimportant to someone who is supposed to be important. Felt so unnecessary.

And when I thought that friends would be the one to replace everything that I thought was trying to make my life full because love really took away quite a big portion of my heart and friends really really need to use their heart and soul, along with my trust to make my heart full again. Yet, whatever I used to feel 2-3 weeks ago, were not what I will be feeling in the future, and i know that it will be forever, not just 2-3 weeks. What man. Why should i always be feeling this. Its so unfair.

And to you, yes you. I really don't wanna care so much, if you have a girlfriend or don't. I just don't understand why did you try to keep it from me. Do you know that i have helped you in trying to get the other her, and now so fast, within 1-2 weeks you can tell me that you already have a girlfriend, when HI SIR, do you remember what did you say a few days before Christmas when we were inside CCK Macdonalds writing our Christmas cards. Have you already forgotten your promises that you say you will fulfill because other guys have yet fulfill their promises to her.

And I was dumb enough to think that you could be serious about her. And we (me, her) would actually thought that the trio will never be separated. Right. Now because of you. Whatever la, I shouldn't be angry at all, because the one that should be shouldn't be me. I am not involve. I am just pissed about being cheated, and lied.

And to the one I think should be important to me. I wonder what is he doing now. Wonder what have he done. Haven really contacted much. And it really hurts feeling so unimportant. I wonder if he still remembers my birthday, remembered how we got to know each other, remembered how we used to love each other so much.

Apart from all those nonsense, I slogged for like 7 hours again today and came home to make muffins. The top were charred. But despite that, it was absolutely nice, i swear. Not trying to boast myself. HEHE. Oh well. (:

Lesson Learnt:

Change of heart, doesn't only imply to love. Friends too. And i believe, my next post will be on friends. Friendship is always the last thing that I would want to change. Trust me, I am hurt.

♥ 12:00 AM

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Sunny day = Happy day

Had work today, freaking tired week. But nevertheless, its the job that made me a happy girl. I get to work with the most familiar surrounding I could ever have. I get to have good pay. I get to talk around with colleagues which are either around my age or older then me. Despite their age, we click well. And i got to learn a lot from them which is really very difficult to learn from textbooks and internets. Such experiences are very rare. I'm glad that I have those opportunities. HEHE.

With all those learning experience i will win. Because every point of life is a game, a game that determines if you have passed and succeeded, so that you will be able to move on to every next obstacle in your life. I've passed my major obstacle in Year 2009. What about you? (:

AH! Im going to do filing tomorrow for like 5 hours. HAHA. Bless me.

Oh yes, and not forgetting. My making the pineapple tart that jam (The pineapple that is on top of the tart) NOW. And yes i meant now. Im like frying it and waiting for the bloody thing to dry up. And I'm blogging.

& you know what, i am beginning to love my life now. I love everyone around me. Yet no one is so going to affect me. HEHE. YAY!

w love

♥ 11:55 PM

I SMILED.

upon coming to a new day, to tell myself that I will be happy.

I am going to be a more optimistic girl. HEHE. Because i came to realize that, no matter how sad/angry/unhappy or other negative feelings i have, i still have to live. & since i have to live, why not live life to the fullest? :D

Well well, I told myself that i must make use of all my time to treat my parents and friends better. I want to use all the time that i could to do everything that i've missed out since young.

When i was young, I remember lying to my parents, stealing my parents money. And i got alot of punishments also. Dad called the police, and i still dare lie to the police. And i was also made to kneel in front of the altar, and i was supposed to feel remorse.

And when i was a little older, i lied to my mum that my teacher gave me money. LOL, when i actually stole from my mum, etc.

And when I was about sec 2, I remember times that i made my parents upset over everything. For example, those times that I made mummy upset because she learnt that i learnt and started how to smoke. Those times that i made her super unhappy by pissing her off small matters. Those moments that i hurled vulgarities at my mum. The period that i became super oh-rebellious and went against almost every single thing my mum asked me to do.

Now, i want to make them happy.

I want to make pineapple tarts for my mum and try help with the family.

I want to try to make bread also. HEHE.

I also want to make muffins. :D

I want to be more fillial to my parents because i think that it is time for me to grow up. No more playing. No more jokes. No more child's play.

Its time to study and work. (:

Yay, i love myself for the change.

Because i am me.

♥ 1:37 AM

Friday, January 2, 2009

Work was tiring;

so is love.

Dearest have been away for 1 whole day and i'm already missing her. ):

But nevertheless, life still have to go on. HAHA. I am alive and kicking after a day's work and yay, i'm trying to enjoy life right now.

Mingxuan Di came over to workplace to pass me my belated belated belated birthday present. Thanks -_- I showed that face because once you guys know who he gave me you guys will give that look too. LOL.

Payday is coming like real soon. I hope its tomorrow! :D

Thats the best thing after a month of work. HEHE.

And love is getting me all so fucked up. ._.

till then.

♥ 9:53 PM

Thursday, January 1, 2009

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!!

welcome to 2009.

anyway; i heard many many versions of the O level release dates.So I am really not very sure of to when will i get the results. But i hope it will be soon because i want to get over the bloody results and dye my hair soon.

And yay,

went out with sis,bro,bro's sister and friends to Vivo City yesterday for the countdown. Imma going to update it real soon. Stay tune with pictures. hehe.

Loves.

♥ 11:33 PM