I am going to be a more optimistic girl. HEHE. Because i came to realize that, no matter how sad/angry/unhappy or other negative feelings i have, i still have to live. & since i have to live, why not live life to the fullest? :D

Well well, I told myself that i must make use of all my time to treat my parents and friends better. I want to use all the time that i could to do everything that i've missed out since young. 

When i was young, I remember lying to my parents, stealing my parents money. And i got alot of punishments also. Dad called the police, and i still dare lie to the police. And i was also made to kneel in front of the altar, and i was supposed to feel remorse. 

And when i was a little older, i lied to my mum that my teacher gave me money. LOL, when i actually stole from my mum, etc.

And when I was about sec 2, I remember times that i made my parents upset over everything. For example, those times that I made mummy upset because she learnt that i learnt and started how to smoke. Those times that i made her super unhappy by pissing her off small matters. Those moments that i hurled vulgarities at my mum. The period that i became super oh-rebellious and went against almost every single thing my mum asked me to do. 

Now, i want to make them happy.

I want to make pineapple tarts for my mum and try help with the family. 

I want to try to make bread also. HEHE. 

I also want to make muffins. :D

I want to be more fillial to my parents because i think that it is time for me to grow up. No more playing. No more jokes. No more child's play. 

Its time to study and work. (: