Why am I getting all hurt once again like some mother fucker. I really don't understand why. And that god must make ME, and only ME go through all these fucking nonsense things over and over again. Ain't you tired? Even if you are not, I'm sorry to say, I am.

Wanna know what happen? Read on.

Went to town today with Tanya to do last minute shopping for Chinese New Year, and sad to say, I didn't get my heels! Because I don't have enough money to get them. Sigh. However, I got myself a bag and New Future shorts. Actually I shouldn't buy NF shorts, so that I will have money to buy shoes. Such a pity. Anyway, she bought her bag and I bought mine at Bugis BHG. I got mine at only $27.90 and because of my good bargaining skills, we got a free coin pouch each. By right we only should have one. HAHA. It looks unique, but I haven't use it. Oh well. I went to watson to find Siokyit but I couldn't spot her anywhere. So we went off. After that we parted at the Mrt station. Tanya was heading to Causeway Seoul Garden, and i went to Paya Lebar to meet Terry Kor. 

I swear it was a disaster. I waited for him to come for about 1hour and a half. It was hell. I used my phone to play games and all just to wait for him to finish dinner and change and walk towards the mrt station to meet me. Took bus 13 and went to ECP. Walked around the place till 8.30 till we saw Kris. It was hell. Because the 1st thing she said to me after hello, and thank you after i passed her her present was... "Jon said if i want him to come, he will come with his girlfriend." I had a shock. I swear. I had no time to react. I felt hurt, to the max. I totally didn't know what to do. I only know I was pissed. I don't know why, for that moment, i hated him alot. Yes I hate Jon.

Whatever la. I feel so dumb for even believing that he loved me. For even believing that he needs me at times. LOL, now he want to play 2 time.. Very pro. I speechless. Really.

&Now im home from Kris bbq. I was starring at the place that he might turn up from, but apparently he didn't turn up. Whatever la. Im off to bed. Nights.

Oh, and did i mention that i dreamt about Tanya last night? Oh man, terrible dreeaamm. Nights.