Do I really seem like those very 逞强 to you guys at times? Like when I'm sad, you guys know it, but I showed a super happy look and appearance, telling every single person that I'm extremely fine. Especially when I'm outside. But when I'm home, I always will flare up because I was upset, or unhappy on that day. Probably because, I'm at home.

My home is my shelter, my 避难所, my chalet, my restaurant, and not forgetting, being my 出气筒. I may be crazy at times, I may be high. I may also laugh nonstop, trying to make people around me happy, but that doesn't mean thats the real me. 

I'm still trying to learn how to manage my feelings. Outside and home. I want to try to let my feelings let out, yet stay cheerful. Or maybe, bottling up feelings might help. Shan't not even let it out at home. So that innocent people wouldn't suffer as much.

sigh.